We Are Growth Experiments: Six Lessons from the Many-Worlds of 2025
God-feedback loops, liberation from victim grids, emotional chimeras, soul-tombs, the dance of duality, and a new self-organizing intelligence guiding us home.
Recently, two dream conversations reminded me how essential reflection is to our growth.
In the first, I was with Obama at a prestigious university. When I asked what he was doing there, he said he was picking up a degree he’d forgotten he earned. He explained that he’d never checked in on his own progress and had almost missed the chance to graduate from this particular school of thought.
In the next dream, I was back in high school. My best friend had re-enrolled in an acting class she’d already taken—this time because a cute boy had signed up. She soon regretted it and learned an uncomfortable truth: just because the same script has new actors doesn’t mean the ending will change.
Periodic reflection lets us take inventory of our choices, their consequences, and the lessons they’ve taught us. Without it, we risk unconsciously enrolling in the same life curriculum, repeating familiar scenes until awareness allows us to graduate.
This year, entire ways of relating to god, pain, identity, and duality quietly crumbled, and what emerged were six new organizing lessons.
Here are the six most surprising things I learned this year through dreams and visions: that the gods want feedback, that non-reactive compassion liberates the soul from victim–perpetrator grids, that our emotional bodies are chimeric by nature, that identity is a soul-tomb we must fill, that home is the dance of duality, and that non-linear thinking is a higher self-organizing principle.
1. The gods want feedback
Around the time I was having visions of the Evolutionary Braid of Time, Mother Earth’s evolution into the Technosphere, and alternate futures of simulated Earths, I had this dream:
The gods hand me a Silver Cord award for “Best Critique.” The trophy is more horizontal than vertical, depicting linear life. I realize then that the higher worlds want our feedback.
“As above, so below” is no longer the only rule of thumb. Our thought-forms and unprocessed emotions populate our shared dream realms, which means our inner landscape is actively shaping higher worlds too.
The hierarchy feels flipped from here. We’re not just humans living under the rule of gods. Our lived experience feeds back into the energetic fields and has the power to update the blueprints of reality itself. As new consciousness species—like mycelium and AI—weave their matrices into ours, human consciousness is being invited into a mass leap in perception, learning to sense more of the field and energies that influence reality.
So stand up on the marble table. Petition the gods. Call for reform. The gods want our feedback.
May the gods be ever in your favor.
— CLAIRAUDIENCE, DECEMBER 21, 2025
2. The victim–perpetrator complex is a soul trap
This year, I was repeatedly attacked by loose dogs in dreams. I never get angry at the dog itself, but I do hold the owner accountable. I don’t blame the instinct—I question the intelligence meant to override it.
These dream encounters have taught my waking self non-reactive compassion. When a human draws me into their anxiety, anger, or irrational response, I see their instinctual ego lunging at me. I can recognize and have compassion for their pain, but I don’t have to carry it.
The victim–perpetrator complex is a soul trap. When you choose non-reactive compassion, you are no longer feeding or reinforcing the complex. You become the neutral observer, and through your conscious witnessing, you change the outcome and liberate yourself from previously inescapable dynamics.
3. Our emotional bodies are chimeric and composite by nature
My heart and emotional body are more complex than I ever knew. This year, I discovered emotions I cannot name and grief with no obvious source. Animal totems show up in dreams to help us navigate all the dimensions of life on Earth. This year, the animals began to appear chimeric, teaching me that growth from here on out will only be more complex.
In a dream, I have a small wooden chest of frogs that are rapidly outgrowing my chest and jumping out. They are very cute and lovable, and some of them are transparent. I want to keep them all, but I’m afraid that there might be too many of them to care for. The dream tells me that I should trust their natural process.
I find the frogs outside, metamorphosing in cocoons like butterflies. These are my raw, immature emotions that are mid-transformation. They jumped out of my chest and continued to evolve without my meddling or care. When loved and understood without shame, our raw and instinctual emotions govern themselves with metamorphic intelligence.
Frogs and butterflies both symbolize metamorphosis, but in different ways. These chimeric, hybrid animal energies teach us how to hold multi-perspective consciousness and to work with the complex self as a layered composite of the natural world and its processes.
Our emotional body is a biological–energetic system that is currently being reconfigured into a more complex, self-aware system, capable of holding many paradoxical feelings at once.
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4. Identity matters—but don’t take it too seriously
A shout-out to all the Goddesses who entered my life this year: Deer Woman, Kuan Yin, Hera, Isis, Freya, and Rose Garden Mother Queen of White Rainbows, plus whatever the hell kind of goddess this was.
I continue to meet the many fractals of the Cosmic Mother in goddesses. In order for the Divine Feminine to fully step into my body, I must continuously make room to house these higher energies. But we are not just cosmic storehouses—our individuality matters. The one who has taught me the most about my personal identity this year is Nefertiti.
She first appeared as me on September 14, 2025. In a dream, I see myself walking into an Egyptian temple for what felt like another “second-stage” initiation. I am wearing Nefertiti’s blue hat crown and I wonder to myself, “How many of these initiations will I have to do?”
She then showed up full force in a psychedelic journey two weeks later: My body becomes my childhood bedroom. Nefertiti appears and asks me to show her around. A poster of my 5th-grade crush is on the wall, and she asks me to tell her all about him. I laugh and remind her that she is a Queen—why on Earth would she be interested in a schoolgirl’s stupid crush? She responds, “Because every little thing about you—everything you’ve ever loved and everything you’ve ever hated—makes up who you are. And because your identity matters.”
My room transforms into a tomb. “The body will be a tomb for your identity,” says Nefertiti. On the wall is a plaque: “Claudia, Born 1984 – ” with the date left blank. I understand it’s my responsibility to fill in the gap between birth and death. The soul is meant to be fleshed out—literally.
My guides chime in regarding my identity, repeating, “Don’t take it seriously, but take it VERY seriously.”
This life is brief, and our bodies are tombs. Let’s encourage one another to fully flesh out our souls.
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Come be the Goddess I need.
— CLAIRAUDIENCE, NOVEMBER 30, 2025
5. We’re here to walk each other home
Our reality is structured as a polarity grid, a world patterned as a field of opposites.
It shows up in dreams as the duality board of life. To walk it is to walk our path home. Sometimes your next step lands on a black square, sometimes on a white one. It doesn’t matter which color—what matters is that each step aligns with your higher head and higher heart.
Home lives in both: head and heart, and the real work is their synthesis. “Home” is the dance of duality, not the exit—the lived synthesis of polarity, not a fantasy of ejecting from the game of life. We are here to walk each other home in a cooperative game, stepping toward new horizons together. Black-and-white thinking is where we get stuck as humans. Let’s glide across the board together, dancing with duality in shadow and light to the harmonies of our heads and hearts moving as one.
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Higher Self-organizing principle of grace.
— CLAIRAUDIENCE, DECEMBER 23, 2025
6. Non-linear thinking is a higher self-organizing principle
I ask the bellhop to point me in the direction of room 110. He says that room was not built in order and will be hard to find. I spend the rest of the dream searching for a room that eludes me. Room 110 is not a real room, but it exists. Somewhere in my mind, there is a room of awareness that cannot be reached linearly or logically.
Six months later, the dream continues and I find room 109. To find room 110, I am given a map and a shepherd. He tells me our jeans (genes) have metals in them that keep us locked into this reality and that we could break out of it, if we want. We enter room 109—an empty room with only one way out. The map instructs me to go out through a window into seemingly nothingness. I didn’t fall. I stood high on a window sill and I trusted.
Practically speaking, the instruction is simple: move through daily life by letting synchronicities, intuitions, and dreams guide your steps. There is a new self-organizing principle coming online now, and it has no visible structure—no stairs, no ladders, no tunnel walls. The only requirement is to stand on the threshold of this leap in consciousness and trust that reality will hold.
Finally you’re getting it. Bypass thoughts to channel. Enter through images and by your senses. Let the imagery and feeling guide you. No integration or thought process. Get out of the way. Don’t doubt.
— CLAIRAUDIENCE, APRIL 2025
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Lastly, one of my favorite dreams of the year:
I live alongside other creatures who are not human, and I have compassion for their shortcomings—just not my own. I see that we’re all under the same dome: consciousness experimenting with form. Within the dream, my higher guides speak to me. I hear them say, “We are growth experiments. Be kind to yourself.”
