DREAM
Sifting through someone else’s auric field
In last night’s dream I found myself in someone else’s auric field.
I wanted to start all over. Delete everything.
These are not my symbols, I said.
I knew if I didn’t extract myself that my painting of reality would be made using someone else’s colors. My vision would be less mine and more his.
So I sat there and sifted through his archetypes and energies, drawing clear boundary lines between the things that did and did not belong to me.
FULL MOON LETTER
Merging with your dreambody and psycho-spiritual technologies
My dream self is more bad-ass than I am. She kicks down locked doors, demands answers to life's riddles, dives into the darkness head first.
Two nights ago, I slayed my first dragon in a dream. Someone dared me to do it. They said, "You don't seem like the type to slay a dragon." I said, "Oh yeah? Watch me." I unsheathed a hidden sword I had tucked into my dreambody and slit that dragon in half.
On the dream streets, I became known as the girl who slays dragons. They recognized me by my shoes. I was wearing my "outdoor" shoes, they said, the shoes I wear in my waking life.
More and more I am merging with my dream self. My senses are activated in the dream states, I can smell and taste and touch feels real. Dream telepathy is a common occurrence.
I often credit psilocybin as being my psychic awakening, but the truth is I was journeying in dream realms long before I was journeying with psychedelics. The psychedelics just helped clear out the clutter of self-doubt.
Psychedelics like any therapy is a modality. It is a spiritual technology for self-excavation, but you don't need psychoactive substances to discover your true self.
In dreams I am sober and lucid, and dreaming is what helps to uncover more and more of my eternal memory.
For me, no path is the one truth. I learned this when I was 8 and devastated my mother was moving us from one church to another. I sat in the passenger seat of our car as she drove the roads at night, and I cried asking her why we can't ever stay in one place. She said in her broken English, "There are so many truths in this worlds, I just want you to know them all."
Because of her, I don’t worship statues or dead text. Instead I gravitate toward living energies that pull me and I trust it is my higher heart that is doing the navigating.
Right now what works for me is active imagination, and mudras while meditating. I practice automatic writing as if I am talking to a God outside of me, but in reality I am speaking to the God within me.
Psycho-spiritual tools or techniques are like throwing a bunch of sticky slap hands onto a wall and seeing what works. I play with them — and guided by my imagination — I alter them as I see fit.
Visions and dreams are also tools. These are not dogmas, just glimpses. I don't get stuck in them.
You know those people. The ones that get bogged down with symbols and conspiracy theories. They're on a quest for meaning but every sign is another mystery to define. Rabbit holes within rabbit holes. The definition itself becomes the reality when it should have been a guidepost — a gentle nudge down the stream of life.
Feel the flow of synchronicities, not the stop sign.
I learn “psychic stuff” in dreams and by divine guidance. In waking life, what is most important is self-reflection and integration of what I see and feel. This means: disciplined dream logging, re-entering dreams in meditative states, daily journaling and monthly re-reading of my journals. I am continually re-telling myself the story of my “self” to establish deep continuity and to become aware of the differences over time.
Here’s what else works:
I read books written on the edges of reality. I learned how to dream backwards — reversing my days before I fall asleep. Instead of sitting in silence, I louden the dimensions of each sense, one at a time. I imagine what it would be like to dissolve my self — all of my energy — and surf the waves of soundscapes and scents. I widen my gaze so that I am never really looking at one thing, but taking in the sensorial data of every thing.
Full disclosure: All this required me to loosen a few screws in my head. I had to un-tighten my own frameworks of "what is possible” and “what is impossible" to allow new vision to come in.
Maintenance means bringing out the mental wrench 🔧 on a daily basis and tightening and loosening my own grips on reality. If you're not grounded here on Earth, you're not grounded anywhere. I hold on to this body, I take care of it and I put it first.
Body maintenance is different for every one. You learn by trial and error what grounds you. For me the quickest ways to come down from a (drugless) altered state is cardio workouts and eating meat.
In a dream last week, my squirrel allies — who teach me how to better play and rest — handed me a lug nut instead of a real nut. They said it was for my mental vehicle, to make sure it stays on the road.
I am learning to balance these two ways of life — the vertical and the linear. Coherence exists in the awareness of multiple realities, but the physical reality is a priority — otherwise you become an energy junkie, surfing the waves of cosmic consciousness with no sense of purpose or identity.
RESOURCES
Books for psychic activation
Below are some books I read that felt more like psychic activations than anything else. They made me feel less alone and understood.
Again with any reality tunnel you enter — if it doesn’t feel right turn back around. You are meant to feel enlightened, not confused.
For example, Tony Stubbs’ “The Ascension Handbook” awakened me in so many ways, but I backed out of his follow-up — “Living with Soul” — after a few chapters due to the paranoia and some things that made me feel icky. It could be his truth, but it doesn’t need to be mine.
Psychic vision tends to see more similarities between the so-called “cosmic” and “mundane” than their apparent differences. This ability to detect the associations between illusory opposites, gives this Center a certain continuity of consciousness. Alli, Antero. Angel Tech: A Modern Shaman's Guide to Reality Selection
NOTE: Antero says this book is outdated and refers everyone to The Eight-Circuit Brain: Navigational Strategies for the Energetic Body. Read both.The veil of forgetfulness serves another, less philosophical purpose, one steeped in the realm of physicality: Our human forms cannot tolerate the expansive frequencies of our higher selves. The veil serves as a filtering mechanism, allowing only those energies we can endure. Sanderson, Candice. The Reluctant Messenger Returns: An Unexpected Adventure into the Angelic Realm
NOTE: This is part two in a great series. Candice Sanderson is a psychologist who had a psychic awakening mid-life and these books chronicle her spiritual journey. She is magical and grounded and her connection is pure.Inspiration, as follows from the whole of the preceding and as is evident from all authentic experience of it, is not something which simply happens, as in the case of vision. Nor is it something which results from the sum total of all efforts at self-sacrifice, mortification, and the reduction of oneself to nothing, as is the case with intuition. Rather, it is a co-activity, the concerted activity of the higher Self and the lower self. It is essentially the flow emanating from two vases at once.
Anonymous, Meditations on the TarotThe psyche, then, is not a known land. It is not simply an alien land, to which or through which you can travel. It is not a completed or nearly complete subjective universe already there for you to explore. It is, instead, an ever-forming state of being, in which your present sense of existence resides. You create it and it creates you. Roberts, Jane. The Nature of the Psyche: Its Human Expression (A Seth Book)
True power is a "being" state, not a "doing" state. Doing power is the old way; being power is expressing Spirit. Now that doesn't mean sitting on a mat radiating energy for the rest of your life. You can still act, only now you're coming from that still, quiet place within you that knows that it's a vast, unlimited force working in harmony with All That Is. Just as "the Tao that can be spoken is not the Tao," power that must act is not true power. True power is strong and yet humble because it knows its strength. Strength means walking without fear because to fear anything denies your ability to create your own reality. You walk in safety because there are no strangers and because you're in harmony with Nature and all her creatures. Stubbs, Tony. An Ascension Handbook
Really fantastic work thank you