🐴 🐋 Stable Fluidity, 🤯 💫 Dissolving the Personality Matrix, and 🧘♂️ Levitating in Dreams
Confusion is consciousness reorganizing into a higher order.
Confusion is consciousness reorganizing into a higher order.
I accept confusion as a stage of transformation.
I trust that I won’t always be confused and that this state is temporary. I take no action to resist, deny, or fix it.
What seems like chaos or confusion at the human level is actually a higher-order pattern giving birth to new properties within me.
Beyond trauma healing, shadow work, ancestral healing, parts work, “right” relating, collective healing, and learning to love myself as an imperfect being, I’m discovering even more complex and layered soul work waiting for me on the other side.
Sometimes life really does feel like a video game. I unlock new skills, find treasures, level up, and suddenly the challenges grow harder. I keep discovering new ways to meet fear and cope with separateness.
For now, here’s a very incomplete snapshot of my ever-changing beliefs:
I don’t believe there’s one right ascension or exit path from Earth. I believe it’s a gift and a privilege to be incarnated on these training grounds—it’s not for the weary. The diversity of consciousness, minds, and hearts can be both painful and beautiful, and it’s my favorite part of Earth. I believe I am both an “I” and a “We.” I feel my soul family carrying me as I carry them. I believe higher heart chakra work unlocks telepathic capacities. I believe neutrality is the playing field of higher love. And I believe the more we can embrace paradox, opposites, and confusion, the happier we become.
ANIMAL MEDICINE
🐴 🐋 Stable Fluidity
I witness a horse and a whale playing together in the water. I feel the horse’s firmness among the waves as the whale dives and resurfaces from its depths. The whale teaches the horse fluidity, and the horse teaches the whale stability.
This paradox is a medicine—stable fluidity is the ability to remain centered while adapting and transforming. We can be both deeply rooted and always changing.
QUANTUM CONSCIOUSNESS
🤯 💫 Dissolving the Personality Matrix
In a dream, I meet another soul who causes my personality to temporarily drop out. I forget how to act or be myself—as if my programming has been reset.
I ask my angels why I feel dispersed and incoherent. They tell me it relates to scalar waves and the zero-point field—concepts I won’t pretend to fully understand. But what I do sense is that my personality was merging with the impersonal, the local with the universal.
The personality matrix is the collection of ego structures shaping our 3D identity—layers formed by unconscious, instinctual, and conscious mind functions. Experiences of ego dissolution can temporarily dislodge us from this matrix, but it often snaps right back into place.
Rather than seeking ego dissolution, we can entrain the self to experience moments of “reset”—aligning with pure resonance to embody and act from soul presence rather than egoic identity.
The simplest ways to entrain the self are to create moments of quietude and stillness throughout your day. Consciously choose neutrality and release emotional and unconscious patterns from your body. Even brief moments of conscious breath or relaxed presence can open this gateway. By cultivating this habit of surrendering ego-driven reactions and embracing stillness, we create space to align with our pure essence—allowing moments of reset where our soul can fully step into our bodies and guide our thoughts, actions, and being.
MENTAL BODY
💇♀️ 💭 Hair in dreams as states of mind
Hair in dreams often symbolizes states of mind, perspectives, or cosmological views. I’m sharing this trilogy of dreams unintegrated and without interpretation, because I’m still trying to figure it out. 🤔
In the dream, I have split ends and my hair is frayed, so I take matters into my own hands. I try to use a chainsaw to trim my hair, but it ends up as a hack job. My angels warn me not to get ahead of myself and to leave it to the professionals.
Two nights later, I decide I’m only going to wear wigs from now on. I rub a compound into my scalp to matte down my natural hair. The angels warn me against using wigs to mask my thoughts—they tell me it’s addictive. As I rub in the compound, all my hair begins to fall out.
After these consecutive nightmares, I surrendered to my own mind. I can’t mask my thoughts or chop them off, so I came up with a prayer to honor my thought process and help me move past it. You might notice it’s loosely based on Dune’s Litany Against Fear:
I am thinking this thought and I am feeling this feeling. I will let them both wash over me and past me, and I will take no action because I trust my angels will point me in the right direction. I walk toward my highest futures and never toward fictions or fear.
I repeated this multiple times a day for about a week, until I didn’t need to repeat it anymore. It gave me a sense of agency and reminded me that, when I feel bullied by my own fear or thoughts, inaction and acceptance are what free me.
UPDATE
Last night, I dreamed I was looking down at my own head, and as my hair parted, a wave of black widows scurried out. There was no angel advice or warning in this dream, but there’s definitely something going on with my crown chakra—and I’m not meant to know what it means right now.
SOUL SCRIPTS
🧘♂️ 🕳️ Levitating above loops, drains, and old storylines
In recent dreams, I’ve been levitating to rise above conflict, constructs, and what I call “devil” scripts—storylines that trap the soul in loops of pain, guilt, and shame.
You don’t have to play every role someone writes for you. Often, these storylines are perpetual loops meant to drain your energy. If a storyline isn’t designed for soul growth, and you’ve already learned its lesson, you’re free to not act your part and exit the loop.
I interpret levitation as a symbol of rising consciousness and the restoration of personal power—the ability to rise above what entraps the soul.
The levitating self can see the illusions overlaying reality. When consciousness rises, participation in those false realities is revoked.
Even in waking life, choosing to “levitate” above old scripts means reclaiming your perspective, energy, and freedom—allowing a higher perspective to rewrite your storyline.
COSMIC PEP TALK
🐉 🌌 The Dragon Field
Everyone has to hold up their own spirit—costumed as a dragon kite—during a night thunderstorm, and I tell the coaches (who are Gods) to put me in to give a pep talk, because most of the dragon fliers are young souls growing weary of holding their spirits up. The Gods tell me it’s a liability to have a “parent” do this, but I insist. I wake up and remember once again that I am a dragon mother/priestess.
I don’t remember exactly what I meant to say in my pep talk, but it might have been something like this:
I know you’re exhausted from holding your spirits up—especially when all the elements seem to be working against you—but please, don’t give up. You’re tethered to dragons, and your dragons know how to survive the storm, because they’re made from it—formed by those same untamed elemental forces, and these forces are your power, too.
I know your soul is weary, but I promise this night will pass. Tomorrow will be bright, and you won’t have to fight to stay standing—instead, you can let yourself be carried by the gentlest wind.
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