🚮 Soul trash, 🕰️ The Existential Waiting Room, 🔮 and FREE Psychic Readings
PSA: 🌟 Your Dreambody is an Avatar
“My personality casts only a particular size net to get to know the world, but you all fill in the rest.”
— Clairaudient dream, Tuesday, September 19, 2023
This is what community means. Each of us maps out our own personal universe. We fill in the gaps for each other. We work collaboratively to uncover the nature of reality and consciousness by sharing our dreams and insights with one another. This newsletter is just my small contribution to that goal. Thank you for reading.
ANNOUNCEMENTS
📢 🔮 FREE Psychic Readings
I want to strengthen my divination skills and I need strangers to do this. I can’t guarantee what it will look like. It might be a visual I create or a dream I have for you — or just a short message that my spirit guides will give me.
This will be private and you’ll have to be patient.
Just fill out this form with your question or request.
I am particularly interested in consciousness problems, spiritual gordian knots and paradoxical riddles — but if it’s about Love, so be it.
POLARITY PARADOX
👍 ⚡️ 👎 Try holding the Neutrality Stick for a while
Duality is essential to life on Earth. The Divine Feminine wants to teach us how to create a third new thing from two extremes. A higher-level of emotional intelligence is needed. It’s not detachment, but awareness and acceptance that the Goddess asks for.
Embracing opposites does not mean a lack of boundaries or a lack of spiritual sovereignty. You’re evolving your soul with every choice you make and that requires you to refine your discernment, and to learn the beauty of the Loving No.
You should always know what part of you is in the driver’s seat.
You should know you are not your thoughts or feelings.
You should know that all realities exist, but that you can create your own.
Never be an extremist.
Never believe you know everything. Never want to know everything.
Spiral slowly and deliberately into your self.
Shine light where you can, and toss out the karmic trash that no longer serves you.
Be a witness to others and reflect back their divinity.
We are all stars navigating our destinies together — let us make it easier for one another and be as bright, wise and loving as possible.
DIMENSIONS OF CONSCIOUSNESS
👁️ 🕰️ 🚪The Existential Waiting Room
I’m on a quest to map out my personal Universe. This is one of those dimensions of consciousness that I experience as a “space.” In the psychedelic waiting room, I feel what it is to have no form or physicality — just an etheric blob with no mind. At first it was uncomfortable for my identity to be stuck in a limbo, now it feels like a respite. I’m never lonely. There are others. We act as placeholders for souls or consciousness. We exist in no time and yet we wait. For what? I don’t really know, but I sense it involves the breath of life and personal choice.
CONSCIOUSNESS JUNKYARD
🧟♂️ 🗑️ 💀 🚮 Negative Thought-Forms and Soul Trash
Here is where the leftovers go. Here is Soul Trash. You are not your fears or bad habits. All the dark negative thought-forms live here — in this consciousness junkyard. They like to dress up as us. They like to puppeteer us and put on plays of anxiety and paranoia. You can cast them out. Lock the door behind you. Consciousness was never a mistake, but soul trash is meant to be tossed out.
UNITY CONSCIOUSNESS
✨ 🧠 🌌 The Joy of Impermanence and Temporary Form
I oscillate between oneness and individuality. In the end I will return myself to the Universal Mosaic. In the meantime, life on Earth can be a constant merging and unmerging from the collective consciousness. We merge when we dream. We sift through transpersonal symbols and archetypes and we pick up what we like and integrate it into our personality to create ourselves anew.
PSYCHIC PROTECTION
✋ 🧿 🚫 How to Avoid Curses
The Mirrored Goddess is my favorite deity right now. She felt Mayan. A shapeshifter and an illusionist. We all need psychic protection practices in our spiritual toolkit.
Curses might be an outdated word, but miasma or spiritual pollution is prevalent in our day to day lives. It materializes itself as energy drains, intrusive thoughts, paranoia, negative emotions, etc.
Several months ago I started to see actual parasites, like slugs, leeching off of our energetic bodies.
At first I shut those sights out, but then realized it’s part of the Shamanic Vision. A healer needs to be able to visually see what is attacking you in order to be able to extract it.
Another inner sense that helps me avoid “curses” is psychic smell. I don’t enter any room that smells “off” to me or if I’m forced to, I armor myself up with protective visualizations, like putting up a barbed-wire fence around my auric field. I also sense spiritual pollution as “stickiness” on my skin.
You can learn to instantly identify when psychic protection is needed. Just practice sensing how you feel while you maneuver through a space, like a shopping mall or a public event.
Create your own visualizations to make your mind an impenetrable fortress.
PERSONAL UPDATE
I just got back from two weeks in Ireland. We hiked the Dingle Peninsula and drove a car from Killarney National Park to Doolin to Galway to Newgrange and back to Dublin.
Here’s a double rainbow I saw on the first day of the Dingle Hike:
I posted this on my blog before I left for Ireland:
Dark Earth Goddess and the soiling of the Soul
I’m headed to Ireland in a few weeks. I’ve been summoned there by my dreams. I find it to be true that once you set an intention to travel or commit to a future event in your life, you can begin to pull energy from that future moment.
Here is a dream that was set in Ireland, both in a mythological past timeline as well as in this linear future.
Dream, June 1, 2023
My Mother or Fairy Godmother or Past-Life Mother tells me a story. She says, “All my Daughters have Dark Earth within.”
I see my human body woven with grass and muddy earth.
It’s ok to make mistakes of varying degrees, she says. Sometimes the darker the regret, the closer we are to Mother Earth’s forgiveness.
These are human lessons to learn. In Heaven there are no mistakes. This being human is a gift— how else will we grow?
I see the seams of my body sewn with soil.
The soul “in a sense” is soiled when we incarnate. This is how I will grow.
Something I will learn in Ireland.
In Ireland I dreamed a conversation with the 🌀🌀🌀Triple Goddess. We discussed the physical body as a tool for spiritual transformation. I pushed my own body to the edge with a strenuous multi-day hike in rain and high winds and I got sick. This month I’m doing sober October and a 24-hour fast on the Full Moon — both can be considered practices for spiritual purification.
I’ve had past life memories of self-flagellation as a form of purification. It might seem violent and barbaric now, but there does a exist a reality when it was necessary. Those “times” are over — thank God.
No one has said it better than Mary Oliver when she wrote in Wild Geese:
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves. …
“All my Daughters have Dark Earth within.” I heard this over and over as I climbed Irish hills and slogged through mud and sheep poop. We don’t have to punish ourselves ever. Separation from Divine Source is punishment enough and it is also a privilege.
This vacation was a reminder that I don’t just belong to the Stars, I belong to the Earth too. I belong to the mud and the dust and the temperamental seasons. And all of it is Perfect.
INCARNATION INTELLIGENCE
How to be be charismatic and attract your destiny
At a festive gathering — in between the worlds — a skinny, awkward man asks a charismatic witch man what he could do to attract love and his destiny. The witch man says, “Sit at the corner of the table and think about what you could do or say to save your life right now and then reach toward that.”
Charisma is your personal magic. It's so easy to recognize charisma in others — they are charming and alluring. "Reach toward what would save your life" means align yourself with your natural gifts and divine purpose and then head toward that — and don't look back. Your love and destiny will follow.
STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS
Your dreambody is an Avatar and how to grow a bigger vessel
Some people call it Spirit — this invisible force that guides us. I call them my guides or angels — but it is Spirit and “in a sense” it is my higher spirit.
Lately I see the visual of angles or angels as angles. These rays of light that originate from higher realms and intersect on this plane, and in that intersection I find a merged consciousness that wants to speak and so I give it voice.
At first, I wondered if I was channeling. I tried to be very aware and conscientious that maybe my system was being hijacked. I am not paranoid or an alarmist by nature, but I am hypervigilant to ensure I never feel puppeteered. It’s vital to this path that I ask questions and I advocate for myself, in real life and in dreams.
A dream is a composite of other realities and realms. The goal is not to become lucid in dreams, but to become lucid in waking life. As that happens, you begin to see waking life is no different than a dream. The Universe is always communicating with you.
Dreams should feel like soul hunting. You wake up with more aspects of your soul. Your energetic body becomes a bigger vessel.
One day, you’ll realize your dreambody is an Avatar. A composite itself — just like dreams – a new body merged from other dimensions and timelines.
My spirit guides gave me a dream once about my container being too small or unequipped for the consciousness streams coming through. Over time, I grew a bigger boat or vessel.
How did I do that? I believe it was this process of introspection, reflection and integration. I believe every dream is a request for action, and by sharing my dreams and visions I eject them from my energetic system. This helps me avoid overloading or burn out. Daily practices for me also include grounding exercises and psychic protection visualizations, but most importantly I keep the channels of communication with the higher realms open in the form of prayer, invocation or meditation. I don’t do all of them each day, but I do at least one.
This whole life process for me is about growing a bigger boat.
My aim is not to reach a Buddhic state or sainthood. I love being human and imperfect. I welcome confusion and emotional knots. I value obstacles in life because my spiritual toolkit for solving these problems keeps growing. It’s such a heavenly gift to be able to learn from life and this is why I incarnated.
Life on Earth is school and in my heart I’ve always been that kid in the class who sits in the front and asks a lot of questions. This is innate to my personality, even beyond Earth.
I used to think Teacher’s Pet was a negative complex or trait, but I don’t think there’s anything wrong with wanting to be a Teacher’s Pet if that teacher is the God beyond Gods and the Source from which we came from.
But for NOW, and in this brief lifetime, my teachers are Earth and Humanity and Divine Love.
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Thank you. My favourite one was the tile chipped away from oneness. The dream state brings us back together. Sometimes when I meditate I imagine that my mind is being plugged back into the mainframe of collective consciousness.