Sin-eater sermonette, death as a doorframe, and a PSA from my higher self

Endarkenment vs Enlightenment

Lately all my prayers have ended with the following request: Bend me toward the light, my Goddesses. But there is a case for endarkenment, rather than enlightenment. We get dropped into the darkness unwillingly — in nightmares and in hindrances — but there is an advantage in descending by choice. The more time I spend exploring the dark parts of me, the more I grasp my true nature. I am not all rainbows and sunshine. I am serpents and fire. I eat my own sins and make my filth sacred. All my sorrows are laid at the altar of life — as an offering and in gratitude.

A sin-eater worships

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BEHIND THE VEIL

🚪Death is a floating door in space

It’s not life vs death. It’s life and death. Creation and destruction. Light and darkness. The duality of existence has to be held with all of your senses — especially your sixth one. It is in the pauses and voids that you find your missing self. Every reality that is spoken creates a reality that is unspoken. Multiverses exist within you. Don’t limit yourself to just this one way of seeing. Always stand on both sides of the doorway.

Death is an open door frame in space

Psychedelic vision, October 15, 2022

Death is an open door frame in Space. I walk through it and nothing has changed — I’m just on the other side.

I look back at my life and wish I would have known this before.

I will not lose my self after death. You take the self with you and merge it with your other lives.

The only thing you do lose after life is the gift of your form — the ability to materialize yourself in linear time.

When you’re on the other side of the doorway, you’ll be able to be everything all at once, but you’ll miss the one reality. This is the true miracle.

You are only one thing right now, but you have infinity at your finger tips.

Stand on both sides of the doorway — and from that vantage point — create your life.

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ASTRAL ADVICE

🔮 How to clarify your intentions

A public service announcement from my higher self.

Hold each intention up to the sun – see what drives you.

Message from a dream, September 20, 2022

Your intentions propel you through life.

If they are cloudy or driven by ego or fear then where you end up could be somewhere you don’t want to be.

If you want to see your future hold your intentions up to the Sun, one by one.

See what is really driving you.

Anything short of divine will is only cheating yourself.

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ARCHETYPAL DREAM

🌊 👦🏻 👵🏽 A lesson in time — the eternal youth and the wise crone

Sometimes the goal is to drop the “I” from all your sentences. To identify less and less with your self or your sex or your station in life. And sometimes there is a need to do the polar opposite of that — to hold on to our form in a closed fist, to re-tell our personal myth over and over again, drop roots into the earth so our spirits don’t float away. I try to let go and hold at the same time. I am a woman with aspects of all different ages and genders within me. In my visions, I ring the church bell of my cathedral and I call them all home.

My masculine youth patiently waits to become a wise crone.

Night dream, October 22, 2022

The small boy within me dives into a cenote, but is unable to climb back out. He waits patiently for me to save him.

I’m scared, I say, I don’t know how to swim. But I jump in anyway.

This is the entrance to my underworld.

There is no way out, except for a spiraling tower that belongs to the wise crone within me. It’s locked. She has the passcode, but she can’t remember it in her old age.

The small boy and I know we will eventually become this older woman as time passes, bringing along the memory of the code.

All we can do is patiently wait.

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VISUAL MEDITATION

⚫️ ✨See souls as orbs of light

Visual meditation inspired by the Emerald Tablets of Thoth

Behind the veil we are all soul orbs

Strip away reality. Imagine yourself in a black void and every being you meet is a glowing orb of light. Some are dim and smaller. Some are large and bright. “These are the lights that are souls among men, growing and fading, existing forever, changing yet living, through death into life.” When you see people this way, you see us all the same. You see how we light the way for one another — banish the darkness that envelops us all. I see your spark of light in the void and I beam my radiance back at you — a cosmic wink — until we meet again.