🌌 🎭 Cosmic puppetry, 🪞🧐 Recognizing Mirror Selves, and⚡🧬 Activating inherent power lines
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IN THIS ISSUE:
Nightmare: Sometimes I choose to be a cosmic puppet.
Animal Ally: The Land Turtle teaches me about Domestic Life
Psychic Protection: How to avoid getting hijacked by a hologram guru
Angelic Realm: “Someday” as a higher perspective
Ego Work: How to sense the difference between your Self and your Mirror Selves
Galactic Family Systems: Cosmic Empaths and Physicality
Inner Child Work: Rainbow Brite “me” and the Starlight Realm
Ancestral Healing: Activating inherent power lines
Holy Vision: Mother Mary blesses the flow of life
NIGHTMARE
🌌 🎭 Sometimes I choose to be a cosmic puppet.
This dream is 3 years old. My identity was stripped from me and it was painful to feel like a blank puppet. This erasure felt like annihilation at worst and a nightmare at best. It would be easy to wake myself up from this dream, but instead I embraced the experience.
I soon realized that my identity was mostly made up of things I cling to — constructs and beliefs I learned since birth — and that underneath my personality there was an energy burning bright that felt more like me than anything else.
Beyond my mind and beyond my heart and beyond this body, I still exist. And this part of me is not fixed and it is always evolving and experiencing creation and consciousness in a collaborative way with other souls, minds, bodies, hearts. A lot of this growth happens in dreams.
In a sense, “Claudia” is a puppet and there is an incredible creative freedom in accepting that as a truth. I don’t have to be a mirrored reflection of what the world projects onto me, I can dress myself up with higher divine qualities and I can change my cosmic costume whenever I want.
“You're under no obligation to be the same person you were 5 minutes ago.”
―Alan Watts
ANIMAL ALLIES
🧹 🐢 The Land Turtle teaches me about Domestic Life
When an animal guide appears in a dream, I know it brings a lesson. If the animal doesn’t speak to you (out loud or telepathically), pay attention to its behavior and the context in which it appears.
In my dream, the turtle showed up in our bedroom — symbolizing marital and household matters. He said, “I am not a sea turtle. I am a land turtle.” Which means he was not there to teach me about my subconscious, but about my external reality. He said, “I am not a snapping turtle, I am a sweet turtle.” Which symbolizes emotional balance and love. And finally he said, “I am nocturnal.” Which meant that he is awake while I sleep — symbolizing an aspect of me that is dormant or unknown at the moment.
This is another vision I am still integrating. Four days after this dream, my husband — acting as an accurate mirror — reflected back to me that there was an imbalance between my inner work and being present in the house. This conversation was uncomfortable for me at first, because my instinct was to defend myself. My inner dialogue was screaming out, “I am a soul, not a domestic robot!” But thankfully, I didn’t do too much screaming and I was able to hear my husband’s sincere request for connection and presence — and I am so grateful for the Turtle’s appearance and guidance!
I’m been working with the Land Turtle energy by moving slower in this linear realm, not snapping, and tending to my land before I dive into my depths.
In the dream, I didn’t want to keep the Turtle, but my husband did. I was afraid it would eat and poop all night while we slept and that every morning I would have to scrape off poop from our floors. My husband’s response in the dream was that we could use the poop for compost. I thought it was a funny thing to say, but in the light of day, I can see the wisdom behind it and the greater metaphor for marriage.
SPIRIT SMARTS
🧙♂️🛡️How to avoid getting hijacked by a hologram guru
I am not opposed to all collectives, but I advocate for the development of your own psychic discernment so that you can recognize when you are being drained energetically by a group or a guru or a God.
When you do inner work to develop your spiritual body, whether it’s meditation or psychedelic therapies, you may also inadvertently develop your psychic body. Once you become aware that you are more than just your one physical body, part of the development is learning to differentiate between your multiple bodies and notice when one of them gets hijacked.
My head has a brain, my heart has a brain and my gut has a brain. I have outer eyes and I have inner eyes. All of my 5 senses have psychic counterpart senses. I have multiple hearts. I have my “Claudia” heart and I have a higher heart that is more wise and kind. I have my “Claudia” brain and I have a higher sacred mind — and sometimes — I connect with what feels like a hive mind or oversoul mind.
It seems infinite to me all the ways we can fragment or fractalize, and come apart and then connect, and merge with other energies, souls, hearts and intelligent systems.
I have cultivated a sincere desire to discover all the ways consciousness gets to know itself, and it’s that desire that I believe propels a lot of these visions and realizations, but I also know there is a limit. My human physicality cannot contain or hold that much consciousness — I would go crazy.
Because of this, I try to stay aware and vigilant. Sometimes I ask, “Who is speaking through me right now?” Is this a shadow self? Is this my inner critic? Is this my heart or my brain? Is this a lower or higher self? Are these my angels? Do I even recognize this voice?
If I sense something foreign or upsetting to my auric field, or if I’m stuck in a thought loop, I pull out my “spiritual toolkit.”
Here are some of my cleansing and psychic protection tools:
I make a sweeping motion with my arms and hands and I physically brush away the negative feelings from my auric field. I’ll say, “This [fill in the negative feeling] does not belong to me. I return it back to the Universe.”
I use this Selenite Gem Essence Spray by Moon Nectar Apothecary as a substitute for burning sage. It is a truly magical concoction for clearing space.
I use my Angel Tuning Forks to tune into a higher frequency and to break up the energy at my desk when I’m been sitting and staring at my screen for long periods of time.
I bless myself with holy water — right now I am using a bottle that I purchased almost two years ago at The Grotto in Portland.
I take a few drops of Ascension Flower Essences made by a bright light on Earth named June Hughes. I found my way to her after being visited by my Guardian Whale Mothers and discovering her channeled book: Whale Wisdom Dolphin Joy. I recommend exploring her website and unearthing her magic and if you feel called to try her essences, reach out to her!
I anoint myself with Temple Oils by Tess Amidan. I’ve been using them for a few years now. They work as portals to higher etheric temples.
"If anything happens in your life which you would prefer didn't, you catch it quickly and ask ‘How does this serve ascension?’ Once you find out, the situation generally changes very quickly." ―Tony Stubbs, An Ascension Handbook
ANGELIC REALM
🌈 🕊️“Someday” as a higher perspective
It took several dreams for my dreamself to see beyond the disguise and recognize my angel. The energy is always pure and innocent — a higher love. He sits close to me as I read the loving message in a greeting card. A "hello" from the higher realms. I hear a jazzy rendition of "Someday We'll Be Together" and I repeat the word "Someday" until I uncover its multiple meanings.
“Someday” is a promise of a new future to come and a reminder that today is also “someday” — a promise fulfilled.
EGO WORK
🪞🧐 How to sense the difference between your Self and your Mirror Selves
This dream was a reminder that we are not just one "I" identity, but rather an intelligent system of many parts or personalities.
Creating internal coherence means getting to know our hidden selves, so that we sort out what is our shadow work or distortions from our truest nature — and then reflect that.
When I sense an imbalance or incoherence within myself, I try to give voice to the negative aspect of me that is resisting or dissatisfied. I often recognize that I’m clinging too hard to a reality that does not exist at the moment. I self soothe the part of me that is too controlling, or immature or self-absorbed to see the big picture and then I try to put it to bed — as if it’s a baby.
I re-align with a higher Self that is more accepting and loving and at peace with how reality is unfolding.
This doesn’t work with all situations, and I don’t always catch it. Sometimes I am self-righteous and I let my emotional body hijack me and I throw a tantrum. 🤷🏻♀️ I’m sorry.
GALACTIC FAMILY SYSTEMS
🛸 🧘♀️ Cosmic Empaths and Physicality
I love spaceship dreams so much! When I was a small child, I would dream of chasing after falling stars. Then, in my early adolescence, when I was very low and depressed — I began to dream alien friends would come and give me rides in their spaceships. These felt like real visitations meant to remind me that I am more than just Earth me.
But lately, these spaceship dreams feel like memories or backstory — and my siblings are there.
I've had similar dreams of my little sister with her eyes tightly shut, struggling and falling as she wades through water. My sensitive Pisces sister is probably 100x more psychic than me, but too scared to see.
The gravity simulation, as a symbol, feels similar to how her emotional body often hijacks her psychic system. I sense that cosmic empaths might clam up on Earth because the environment is too alien or unfamiliar.
There is preparation involved with incarnation and there is preparation involved with ascension. There is a mastery of systems that needs to take place — physical, emotional, mental, etc. — all of it has to be in balance.
Life on Earth can sometimes feel like a training ground. We’re not all working on the same things, but we can at least commiserate and support each other.
It’s hard to be an evolving human on a cosmic journey.
INNER CHILD WORK
🌈 👨🚀 Rainbow Brite “me” and the Starlight Realm
This world was dark except for the light of rainbows. Refracted "life" light that breaks through the dimension. This is the Starlight Realm she tells me. "Rainbow Brite" takes me on a tour and tells me of her responsibilities: protecting and preparing the other children for Life. Some of these souls had lived before and died young or experienced so much trauma they were afraid to return. There is no pressure or rush to be born again.
The Starlight Realm is a rest stop for play and exploration and consciousness-strengthening.
I’m still integrating this vision. I wanted to bring this soul aspect of me back down to Earth, but she said she had a responsibility to her own realm. I’ve been connecting with her by watching old Rainbow Brite episodes on YouTube. It’s awakening a part of my childhood consciousness that feels pre-verbal, yet knowing of the interdependence of light and darkness, and its importance to my life.
ANCESTRAL HEALING
⚡🧬 Activating inherent power lines
Walking a dream landscape is the same as walking your inner landscape. It’s similar to a psychedelic journey where it benefits you to not resist and breathe into your body and let the vision unfold before you.
There is so much of our reality and awareness that is filtered out during our daily, waking lives that can only be discovered when you go inward or in dreams. The more I explore the more natural wonders I find.
In the dream, I knew the power lines I was looking at were power lines in my body. I watched as the lightning storm — a power descending from above — activated something within me that was always meant to be restored.
The crowns we place on our grandmothers will someday be passed back down to us.
HOLY VISION
🌊 🙏🏼 Mother Mary blesses the flow of life
It felt like an alien visitation to see Her above me on a flying carpet. Both an E.T. sighting and a blessing. The Divine is around us at all times. This realm of waterways —as if all the world was Venice —symbolizes living your life in the depths. The water as our deep subconscious and as the substance that can carry us or drown us.
Life is a river that brings forth renewal and ruin. Everything that is of nature involves change, chaos, and cycles of death and rebirth.
Being in the flow of Life means to allow this elemental energy to erode us. Our souls are shaped by the sorrows and grief that we accept and honor. Like the river banks, our souls get deeper over time.
What we truly fear is not death but annihilation of our reality. When too much Life floods us, we cling to the shores afraid of drowning. Instead of letting ourselves be carried away by this transformative power. We resist chaos and change instead of seeing it as an opportunity to create new pathways within us.
When I saw Her appear above me, I felt soothed and safe and affirmed. I can understand that Death is not the opposite of Life — Death is woven into Life. I can grieve and embody acceptance at the same time.
I recognize when Death is knocking at my door when there is discomfort in my body and I find myself clinging to reality by my claws. Something has to die. Usually it’s a mental construct or an old belief or a desire that no longer serves me.
Allowing Death to come in and take away what is no longer needed creates space within you for transformation. You see your own depths — how deep you are inside — and all the potentials for growth and change within your reach.
We don’t have to live the same loops over and over again. Allow Life to carry you away sometimes. Trust that there is an intentional flow to your life and just let go.
Note: A lot of these insights came to me the night after this dream during the Monthly Cosmic Spirit Party on “Death and Roadkill”. 🙏🏼 Thank you to every one who attended and shared their fears, insights and wisdom.
The next Cosmic Spirit Party will be held via Zoom on Sunday, February 25th at 10AM PST, and the theme will be Stage Fright — both on the Cosmic stage and the stage of Life.
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The mirror self / shadow has been on my mind a lot lately, too. Have you read Jung’s “The Undiscovered Self”? It’s my current obsession. https://a.co/d/0zn5QZX
Thanks for this edition. My first song uploaded to Spotify is called Stars Fall https://open.spotify.com/track/6FQmnOt3YMnRAUEo1WEjFY